I am continually amazed by Marisol. Her confident and feisty personality inspires me to take more pride in myself and to appreciate myself for who I am. Despite physically and emotionally abusive relationships, Marisol continues to have a positive attitude and focuses on the important tasks at hand in her life. When I am around her, I begin to feel more confident in myself because I see the beauty in continual persistence and determination in her.
In our tutoring session yesterday, Marisol told me about how she was hospitalized not too long ago because of depression. She continues to battle issues with depression, but makes a genuine effort daily to combat that problem. Rather that wallowing in self pity, Marisol wakes up everyday, looks in the mirror, and tells her reflection that she is beautiful, successful, and worthy. She embraces who she is and celebrates her accomplishments in life, rather than focusing on the negative aspects.
I also feel as if I have a purpose and am making a difference. I treasure and value the feeling I have when I walk back to my dorm room after having met with Marisol for our tutoring sessions. The ability to make a difference in someone else's life is a feeling that is difficult to describe. As the sun streams down, kissing the freshly-cut grass, a gentle breeze whips through my hair, the weather is truly ideal, and for a brief moment everything seems right in the world and in my life. I forget about all of my other mundane tasks that need to be completed for various classes and organizations, I forget about drama surrounding my friends and family, and I forget about the stress I feel when I contemplate my future because currently it is full of uncertainty and doubt. For a brief moment in my week, I do not doubt my abilities and gifts as a student or as a person. I feel as if I have purpose, and cannot help but to close my eyes, breathe in the fresh, warm air, and smile as I exhale. The days that I tutor make me appreciate the beauty in the world and the simple acts of kindness and servitude.
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Wow, your meetings are powerful. I think it is great that you are both learning from each other. You are making such a difference in her life and I know how good it feels to know you are helping someone else. I will look forward to reading your next post.
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